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Paper Doll

She sat alone in the darkness in the shadows...The pain consumed her as she wallowed suffering in her shame...Why did I ever think that you truely cared?.... she wondered to herself desperatly searching for answers...What happened?...What did I do to make you hate me?...What changed?...Something must of changed....you are no longer the person I once thought that you were...She pulled her knees up to her chest and rocked herself back and forth as she cried trying to brush her streeming tears away with the back of her hand...You must of loved me once...once not so long ago....not to long ago maybe I loved you to....I don't understand what happened and you won't tell me....you won't give me any answers but leave me alone in the darkness wondering....I loved you when no one else would....I always listened to you and never judged you when the rest of the world was tearing you down....At first you took my heart oh so carefully oh so softly cradling in the palm of your hands...You loved and took care of my heart...but then somewhere along the way something changed...you were different and instead of being cradled gently you placed my heart in your back pocket...you sat on it and kept it for yourself and I didn't mind...you still kept my heart but were not quite so careful with it as you were once before...However one day I found you crushing my heart and not letting it get any air....I forgave you I ALWAYS forgave you...I simply brushed off all the pain you were causing me but you didn't see that did you?....Sometimes I wonder if you truely loved me at all...how could someone who loved me inflict so much pain on me and my life?....and why did I tolerate it? sometimes I wonder what I was thinking....I think that I was desperatly trying to hold on to you...I was willing to endure what was necessary for you to love me...But I was wrong...You tricked me like all who I've loved before....I cannot trust you...I never should of allowed you to hold my heart....I should of never allowed you to whisper sweet things in my ear....She gasped for breath through her sobbing screams....She clawed the dirt beneath her digging her long fingers into the soil..."HOW COULD YOU BETRAY ME?!?!?" she screamed into the darkness "Why did I ever believe you when you said you loved me?" She curled up on the ground like a small child trying to hide from the hatred of the world. Warm rain began to fall upon her and she streaked mud across her face as she tried to scrub the tears away... You used me and then threw me away...you toyed with me leading me on like your puppet and then you cut my heart to shreds....by the time you were finished my heart was in so many ribbons but you told me you loved me as you stooped to the ground to collect all the tattered pieces...Then you would paste me roughly back together like merely a paper doll...And this would happen over and over again...you would break my heart and mend it again and again and again...I always forgave you I forgive you now....But I am now broken to a point that I cannot be fixed...you are no longer around to fix me.. and no one else can now either...I have been broken and battered and bruised by you but you never noticed...why did I hold on to you so tightly?...why was I so afraid to loose you when all you did was cause me greif for only a bit of happiness...I was like an abused puppy searching for affection from a hateful master only to be struck down once again... You have broken me down....I always loved you...if you only knew the extent of it perhaps you would change your mind....somehow I doubt it...I was only your muse while you searched the world over for something "better". Maybe that was your intent all along but I never saw it that way until now...until you left me FOREVER.... I wish I could of seen before now that you are not worth the time and pain I struggled with over you...I DESERVE MORE....She laid in the mud on the ground for seemingly hours soaking in the warm rain....feeling it run over her skin....She wished with all her might that things would have been different but it was over between them it no longer mattered...she was freed from her abusive master...She turned her head to the side catching a glimpse of light from the corner of her eye...She plucked the light from the muddy soil...a single daisy withstood the mud and the rain and stood alone in the field in which she laid...She clutched the daisy to her chest protectivly...this daisy was her hope that the rain would be coming and she would hold on to the light in the darkness and through the intense pain....

One Tear in the driving rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One light that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If Your everything You say You are
Won't you come close and hold my heart?
Hold My Heart by Tenth Avenue North

I loved you and you left me...you hurt me so much....you broke my heart....and you never even realized it...you probably never will...I remain comforted by the three simple words which are so difficult to say but I mean them with all my heart and with all my innermost being....As much as I would love to hate you for the pain you have caused me strangely I do not....I FORGIVE YOU...
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Always There

She sat in that dark room playing with the tips of her hair anxiously waiting. She stared at the phone why didn't they call? She bit the uneven edges of her nails chopping them short with her teeth. She had sat and waited for seemingly hours. Waiting for something to happen...waiting for them to call. She didn't understand why they were ignoring her when she needed them the most...She sat toying with the hem of her shirt as she glanced over at the phone sitting cold and lonely in the dark corner. She tried to breathe slowly to calm her erratic heart beat but with no avail. Her mind went crazy as she sat there....there were so many things she wanted to say..so many things she needed to tell them....A glossy tear slid down her cheek as she lowered herself to cradle her chin in the palms of her hands. They would never know what they meant to her...They were everything to her....They saw her when she was invisible...they had cared about her and even.....loved her. They were the only person who was ever there when everyone else abandoned her....they never knew how much they meant to her...she had never spoken a whisper to them that maybe....maybe some how they had broken through the hard walls surrounding her heart and flooded into the void making her fall in love with them...She hadn't tried to love them...she didn't need the pressure or the stress or the drama...why did they think that she had buried her heart and emotions for so long....but yet they had captured her heart and made her fall in love with the one who was ALWAYS THERE......They were always there for her in her times of struggles and pain.....She had tried to be there for them to...but they were different... they made her confused and happy and feel beautiful....they had seen her in her darkest hour and had become her friend....She had never told them how she truly felt...that her heart fluttered when she saw them that she was so amazed by them and truly loved them... she supposed that she would now never get that chance....that she had only been a phase that she wasn't worth there time....She felt herself crashing...She needed them!...however it was apparent that they did not need her.....She felt a sob emerge from her innermost being.....I LOVE YOU! I love you.....The phone rang................... Once again they are always there..............................
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OK so I know it has been a little while since I last posted but I wanted to blog for a sec right now to let you all know that I have a new story in the works and hopefully I will have it posted by the end of this week. PLEASE check back to read my latest story. If you have time please check out my other blogs and website, comment on anything you like and vote on my poll! Thanks everyone!
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Thanks to everyone who voted on my poll 1/3 of voters favorite type of music to listen to is heavy metal. 1/3 of voters favorite type of music is rap, and 1/3 of the voters chose contemperary music. If you all have time please read my stories, comment on anything, vote on my new poll, and check out my other blogs and websites. : )
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Better Late The Never!

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OK so I know it's a bit late but I figure better late then never! lol OK so here is the story I was supposed to post over the weekend. I was only one day late! lol I hope you all forgive me and I hope that you all enjoy my brand new story called Silhouette. I really enjoyed writing it. If you have time please read my other stories, comment on anything you like, vote on my poll, and check out my other blogs and website! Thanks everyone Enjoy! : )
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Silhouette

It was a cold morning. The sun had not yet begun to rise and she could only see flecks of gold and pink streaked across the dark mahogany sky. It had been a long day...long week...long year....she had climbed the fire escape in the dark of night. Scaling the building reaching for the stars...Her white dress tangled around her legs as she stood at the edge of the building her toes curled over the thin edge. She breathed in deeply as the icy cold wind tossed her curls around her round face. She tottered backwards and forwards gripping the ledge with her bare feet. Filled with exhaustion she stared out at the horizon willing the sun to rise more quickly. She needed to escape desperately willing the day to be over...Her heart was crumbling into millions of pieces. She had protected her heart for so long holding it gently away from the dangers of the world....Her eyes brimmed with tears and she felt her body begin to shake. Why is the world so cruel?...she wondered...Why do they hate me?...why can't I be like everyone one else I know?...why do I have to be so different?....I have always been considered different...a freak....a monster...I have never felt love as I deserve to....Or maybe I don't deserve to be loved...Maybe my destiny is to be like this FOREVER.....Maybe I am meant to be alone....She felt tears run down her cheeks as she stood tottering over a twelve story drop to the lonely alley bellow. "WHY!!!!!" she screamed her voice echoing throughout the empty streets...or so she thought....But He saw her... through the darkness through the rain He saw her melting in her pain and desperation....She had never seen him before and did not realize that He was watching her from the alley below....His eyes shot upwards as she screamed and He took off running.... She had been run from all her life but He didn't run away...He came clattering up the fire escape and slowly stepped forwards as to not startle her...He spoke is a deep soft voice almost a whisper..."I am here." He whispered His shadows casting His silhouette across the soft gray cement of the roof.. She turned slowly hot tears streaming from her soft brown eyes...."Why do You care?" she yelled "you don't even know me! Stay away from me!" He took another step forwards His eyes piercing her heart as He looked straight into hers locking her into His gaze...."I care for you very much.. much more then you know..." He said in scarcely a whisper. Her eyes flitted away from his startled by His honestly. Was he being honest? How could He care for her when He didn't even know her?... "I don't understand"...she stuttered nervously brushing a few tears off of her face....He approached her slowly but surely... "I understand you"..He whispered..."All of you"..."This world is a cruel place...I have been hated by so many....I was different then everyone else I was considered weird and a freak... My purpose was to show this world TRUE LOVE...yet everyone rejected Me spit at Me and called Me names.....I was so feared and despised that I was killed for YOU not so that YOU can experience the TRUE LOVE you deserve but UNCONDITIONAL LOVE regardless of who you are or what you have done".... He was so close to her now she could feel His warmth cutting through the freezing winds "How can You be dead?" She asked..."Your standing right here." A small smile formed on His lips. "I rose again." He calmly whispered. "Because I am the Son that you are so desperately searching for...I am the light to pierce your darkness...I love you so much that I was willing to die for you... You don't understand how much I love you....I don't want to see you hurt yourself any more because I LOVE YOU.... so much...You can never understand the depth of my love for you"....He slowly stretched His hand out towards her gesturing for her to take it....She slowly inched away from the edge and slipped her hand into his. "I know"...she whispered back tears running down her face...."some how I know" He pulled her further in towards the middle of the roof away from the edge..."He pulled her into his arms and softly kissed her...."I LOVE YOU"....He whispered in her ear...she nodded gently. And He held her in His strong arms filling her with unconditional love until the morning...The Son rose and she felt true love for the first time......
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I just wanted to let you all know that I am hoping to be able to post a new story for you all this week! I know there is not much of this week left but that is my plan so please check back tonight and tomorrow for a new story! Also if you have time please comment on my posts I would love to know what you think and vote on my polls! Thanks everyone!
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