In a Row!

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Wow I was actually able to make two posts almost in a row! It's been a long time since I have been able to post a story consistantly. But anyways I hope that you enjoy it!
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Mighty Fortress

She stood alone in the empty room. Her eyes were glazed as she stared off into space. Her eyes were frozen glued to the barren white walls. She took in short raspy breaths as she stood frozen comatoes. She was desperate for anything anyone to take away the hurting....she felt willing to compromise every promise she had made to herself so long ago in order to make the pain simply go away....she so badly wanted to feel whole again...she felt as if everything and everyone who she loved was slowly slipping away....She could feel them loosening their grasp and letting go of her and falling away into the abys of shadows....that they were falling away from her sight and from her life....she was so afraid that she was going to loose them forever...that she would never see them again...that they were leaving her...just like everyone else...everyone always left her...at one point or another everyone would abandon her....that was the story of her life she would give her heart away and would love to hre greatest capacity until her heart burst....and then slowly but surely they would fade away and would slip silently out of her life like a nightmare or a shadow....PLEASE...she whispered....don't leave me...not again...she felt so lonely and so afraid that she was going to be abandoned again...but then again she was used to it by now...it was the story of her life...everyone who she loved would leave her...slowly but surely they would all walk away...either they would slip away in the night into the forever sleep...or once they discovered who she really was they would run away...they would leave when it got tough even when she did everything in her power to stay strong for them...when life would get difficult they would run away....and after a time she began to run to...she was so tired of being left alone she started blocking people out of her life....she didn't even truely know if she could really love again...she didn't know if love was maybe just a fairy tale which didn't really exist....that no one would ever really be there for her...that no one would ever really care...that maybe all of her hopes and dreams were just wishful thinking that would never come to pass...NO! she siad...this can't be true! there has to be hope...even in the darkness there is always some light there is always a hope and always something worth continuing for...even when her heart was shattered she would continue...she would stand strong though the storm....no matter what life threw at her she would withstand the pain...she would remain...when her world was falling apart around her she would stay through the pain and the suffering and she would survive through it all..some how she would survive and keep going....she couldn't give up on love...love was what drove her to care...love was what drove her to stay alive...the hope and the promise that some day someone would love her enough not to leave her...and even if they did...that she would know without a doubt that they were not trying to hurt her...even if everyone and everything she held dear was ripped away she would remain...through it all she would be a mighty fortress strong and beautiful withstanding the storm...even when the strongest winds hit she would brace herself for the pain and keep her footing she would not be moved...she would find someone who would not break her heart...she would find someone who would love her even once they discovered who she really was...she would stand strong and tall like a tower until the sun would rise over the darkest valley and light her way...
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Little Crazy

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 Sorry it's been a while since I last posted anything! It's been a little crazy with life lately and being busy. But anyways I hope that you all enjoy my latest story Toy Soldier. Please vote on my poll so I know that you have been here!
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Toy Soldier

She sat vision blurred on the cold wooden floor. She pulled her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs. In her hand she clutched a small photograph. Her fingers were tightly wound around the corners of the image defensively as if she was protecting it from being snatched quickly out of her grasp. Her breathing was shallow and she was in a comatose daze staring blankly at the barren walls. "I'm going to be just fine..." she tried to reassure herself but she knew that it was only a lie...she wasn't fine and it was going to take a substantial amount of time before she ever felt fine again....she hadn't intended to lose her heart so quickly...she wasn't looking for love at the time but then out of the blue love found her....it was like in those old sappy romance movies and it was so beautiful....but it was only a fragment of time before that memory was ripped away from her....those she loved were ripped out of her desperate grasp....tears slid down her sodden cheeks as she rocked herself back and forth trying to calm her frantic breathing..."I shouldn't be this upset..."she kept telling herself "I shouldn't let this affect me because I only knew him for a few days..." But in the deepest part of her soul she knew that it had only taken a brief amount of time for her to fall head over heels....It was quick and abrupt but it was beautiful and it stole a piece of her heart...she knew that he would always be a part of her no matter what....her heart ached as she sat there praying and desperately hoping that someday somehow she would find her way back to him….that one day she would be able to return to him once again….however, she knew that there was no hope…that no matter how long she longed for him or how many tears she cried she would never see him again…..HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ACCEPT THAT?! She screamed….how am I supposed to allow you to slip away from my memory from my heart from my world?....how am I supposed to forget you?...can I even forget you?.....part of her wanted the whole memory to go away like a nightmare but the other part of her wanted to hold on to those precious painful  moments for the rest of her life and to relive those moments every single day…..her heart felt like it was ripped in half…she felt so tired and emotionally exhausted….all she wanted was to go back in time and live those moments again but to rewrite her story where she didn’t come home but where she stayed….where she got to see him every day…where her heart was mended and where she didn’t spend endless hours crying herself to sleep…..where she felt whole and happy again…where all was right with the world…she just wanted to fall into a deep sleep and not wake up…..she was so tired of feeling broken….of having everyone and everything she loved ripped away from her….she was so tired of being left alone and shattered….she was so tired of trying to love people……but it was who she was…through all the pain and all the suffering she would carry on….she would pick herself up and pocket her photograph and keep it close to her heart….she might never see him again but she wouldn’t give up on life…she wouldn’t stop loving people even if they stopped loving her…she wouldn’t give up on love just because of how many times she was abandoned….she wouldn’t give up trying to show love to people even when they threw her away like garbage…she wouldn’t give up on hope that things would one day get better…and that even though she was crumbled now she would stand strong through it all…that no matter how many times people would tare her down she would rise again stronger with her hand on her heart feeling the pounding of the life flowing inside of her….even when she didn’t want to carry on she would put on a smile through the agonizing pain and she would march on…like a toy soldier programmed to do one thing she would move robotically through life through enemy lines…she would be dragged down many times but she would pick herself back up even when she knew that she would never see him again and she would keep going because that’s who she was….and that’s all who she knew to be….
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Posted

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I'm so sorry that it has been so long since the last time I posted a story but anyways I hope that you all enjoy this one! :)
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The Worries Of The World

When the waves of pain come crashing down
Just take a step back and look around
You are blessed
You are loved
So just rest
Your feet are planted on solid ground
When your knees are shaking
And your heart is breaking
Realize
That you don't have to fight
You are strong
And you are free
You are no longer bound by misery
You can breathe in the peace
And release every worry plaguing your soul
You can laugh
And you can cry
And your spirit will know that everything will be alright
You have grown
You are not alone
You no longer have to hide
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Week!

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I just posted my latest story which is called Trembling I hope that you all enjoy it! :) Have a great week!
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Trembling

She took a deep breath....her head was pounding...it felt as if sharp nails were penetrating her skull....her heart was breaking...she felt weak...her legs trembled beneath her...she didn't understand why her world always seemed to be crashing down around her....all she wanted was for someone to love her...but she knew that it was impossible...she would only ever be seen as a freak...she would never be accepted as who she was but as what she was....she would never be loved for her heart...people never looked that deep into her...all they saw was that she was different and that she was someone who they could never love...she cried hot tears streamed down her cheeks as she stood...all she wanted was a fair chance to be loved...a fair chance for people to see who she truly was....all she wanted was for people not to judge her...her heart was breaking in two...please...forgive me....she whispered...all she wanted in life was to make a difference....all she wanted in life was to have someone see her for who she truly was....
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Hey!

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I just posted a new story called Survivor and I hope that you all enjoy it!! :)
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Survivor

She breathed in short raspy breaths....she was panicing...she was frozen by fear...she was angry...hot tears slid down her cheeks as she ran away from the world...her fist slammed into the wall....her heart was pounding out of her chest...she was so afraid...she didn't want to be forced into anything...WHY GOD!? She screamed from the inside....Why?.....why do I have to do this....as scared and angry as she was she was desperate and confused...she didn't want to be forced into anything....but even through the mixed emotions she was angrier at herself then anyone else because she was feeling this way...she shouldn't be feeling this way...she should be compassionate and willing to take any opportunity God gave her....but inside she was so afraid paralyzed by fear...the fear blinded her...all she wanted to do was run away...she didn't believe that she was strong enough...she was tired and frustrated and she just wanted to cry and hide from the world...her heart was breaking in two...fear had crippled her all of her life...it had prevented her from living her life the way she wanted to....fear of failure...fear of rejection...and just fear that she wasn't strong enough dragged her down every time....She was so scared she didn't want to disappoint anyone or look stupid...she tried to catch her breath....her sides were heaving as she slowed down and tried to take deeper slow breaths...she slowly turned and headed back towards the way she came from...she made it half way and she broke down again...this fear was holding her back...she crumpled down in the corner and cried rocking herself back and forth trying to muffle her sobs...finally she stood to her feet....this fear was no longer allowed to control her or her life or her decisions...she wanted to be free of this fear and she would conquer it if it was the last thing she did....steadfastly she proceeded towards her fear...she could feel her heart begin to pound harder as she walked steadily and firmly towards her goal...she would make it...she would survive...fear would keep her in bondage no longer....before she knew it it was over....and she could finally taste FREEDOM....this was not the last time fear would try to drag her down....but next time she would be just a bit stronger then before...she would be a bit more determined and even if it felt like the whole world was coming down on her...she would SURVIVE.....
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Brand New

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Sorry I haven't posted in a little while. I hope that you all like my brand new story I just posted. This story is called Sanctuary.. I hope that you all enjoy it!
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Sanctuary

It was a cool evening. A soft breeze swept through the trees and a light rain misted the grass of the fields...The grass was as tall as a man stood tall and it gently swayed from side to side in the wind...it almost looked as if it was dancing shifting softly in the cool breeze...Deep inside the vast grasses sat a young girl...she was tucked away deep into the fields sitting in the tall grass totally surrounded and hidden from the world...this was a place of total peace...however as you looked into this young girls eyes you could see the wisdom of a thousand years...you could see the pain of a decade...and the tourture of many souls...how though could such a young girl have experienced so much in such a short life time...how could this girl have experienced the pain and sorrow of many twice her age...She sat in this field as a beautiful flower soaking in the last rays of the evening sun...her chin was dipped upwards towards the sky...she closed her eyes gently as the soft wind whipped her hair around her shoulders...this is the place where this girl would come to rest...her safe place...her sanctuary...the place where she could go where the rest of the world could not touch her...she was free here...from all of the worries and stresses of life...free from family...friends...and overwhelming situations...she could find perfect peace for her soul here...all of the pain from her own circumstances and from the circumstances of others which she burdened was allowed to slip away and her weary mind could rest from it's burdens...she felt lighter just being here hiding away from the world and from it's problems....she had lived the pain of many lifetimes in her short life...she had experienced things she hoped that she would never have to...just when she thought that she was free another thing would crash into her life...destroying every hope she had to be free....but here she had no worries...she had no pain...she had total and compleate peace...she was free from her burdens...she never wanted to leave this place...She didn't want to have to face the world again...she wanted to stay here in sanctuary and leave the world and it's troubles to others...but that was not who she was...she could not leave those she loved to fend for themselves...she could not leave this world yet...she could not abandon this world...she would remain here and she would take the pain of others who could not bare it alone...she would take there pain and her own and she would carry it away...with tears in her eyes and scars on her heart she would take the pain if it meant those around her were finally happy...if they would finally be free...she would stay here as long as she was needed...but one day when her time was up the young girl with the eyes of an old woman would return to this field...to this sanctuary...and she would lay in this field with the cool breeze upon her...and she would sleep and rest and recover in this sanctuary and she would finally feel peace...and just maybe she would be restored to the young girl who she never had time to truly be...
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Please

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I just posted a new story for you all...I hope that you all enjoy it. Please stay tuned for more new stories coming in the near future! : )
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Never Forget

She ran through the woods her heart was beating rhythmically  pounding out of her chest...she ran so quickly she thought her feet were going to lift off of the ground...her feet pounded on the ground as she swerved around the trees in her path...Hot tears spilled down her cheeks blinding her while she ran...Her foot caught on a branch as she tore through the forest...she fell to the ground shielding her eyes with her hands as she went crashing to the earth...She crumpled on the hard ground...she lifted her tattered palms and watched thick red blood ooze out of the scrapes across her hands....She buried her face in her hands and wept....This was the night of an event long ago...something that had broken her heart and scarred her soul...She thought that she had recovered but she had not...she was still broken inside....her heart was not yet repaired from the injustice...She had loved him...even if she had not spoken it he was a part of her...he had impacted her life...and she loved him...if she would of had longer she would of told him...he would of known how much she cared...she missed him so much...her heart ached for him...she just wanted to escape...she didn't want to have to think about it anymore...She just wanted to run away and never come back...Her heart was breaking....she wished so deeply  that she could turn back the clock and start over...but it was to late...she missed her chance...It was over....She cried holding herself rocking back and forth....her lips were chapped as she passed her bloody hand over her cheek..."I miss you..." she whispered...."I just wish that you knew how much I cared..." "Even though you have left...I will never forget you..."

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Blessed

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Here is a new story for you all! I hope that you enjoy it : ) I hope that you have a blessed week. Please stay tuned for more stories coming soon! : )
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Strong Roots

She walked alone in a field...her bare feet pressed into the soft mud as she quickly walked through the tall grasses swaying gently in the evening breeze...She stared into the vast darkness as if something was holding her eyes...fixing them to one distant location....A warm tear softly spilled from the brim of her eye and rolled gently down her cheek...She breathed the warm humid air in filling her full lung capacity and then released it in a quiet sigh almost a whisper....She felt mentally and physically exhausted...All she wanted to do was curl up in a ball and sleep for an eternity...She didn't understand why everyone wanted to hurt her...it seemed to be a constant thing in her life...one thing after another would push her back further and further from where she wanted to go....but she was strong.... She knew that she could withstand anything that was thrown her way....her roots had grown deep from the many storms that had come her way...She was deeply rooted and was unmoved...she could withstand even the toughest and mightiest winds....Even the rushing waters of the most powerful flood could not move her...She took blow after blow and many times she thought that she was going to fall...she thought that it was finally over... But somehow through all the damage and destruction in her life she managed to climb out through the rubble and start over once again and became just a little bit stronger then before...Time after time she was pushed away but the resistance just made her roots surge deeper into the rich soil....often times she felt so broken she knew in her heart she could no longer carry on but all those hardships...every blow she felt made her who she was...it defined her...and it made her stronger and stronger able to withstand even the most difficult storm...Just because she was strong doesn't mean that it didn't hurt her...she was not invincible...she still felt pain...her heart was still broken...but she knew that it would heal...she knew that she would be alright...and she knew that good fruit would come from the pain she had endured....There may be PAIN  in the night but JOY comes in the morning...
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Fantastic!

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Here is a new story for you all. I hope that you enjoy reading it. Have a fantastic day everyone! Stay tuned for more stories coming soon! : )
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Trust

Why?....the angry thoughts consumed her...why am I such a fool to believe that I could trust you...When I was alone and depressed...when I was angry and in pain you were there ALWAYS....You promised that you would always be here for me...even when hundreds of miles separated us you said that you would never leave me...you said that everything would be alright...you told me that you loved me...you said that you cared....I looked up to you and you looked after me...I told you my secrets...I told you what my heart was speaking...you knew everything about me every tiny pin stuck in my heart...you promised me that even when you left that you would be back for me...that you would always come back...that you would always care even when the rest of the world wanted to tare me down...I BELIEVED you...I trust people to quickly...I know I do but still I knew you for years and I never thought that you of all people would break my heart....when I found out what you did to us...what you did to me...my heart stopped...for a moment I refused to believe it...I tried to make myself believe that you would never do anything to me...that you were the person who I always believed you to be...but the reality is you LIED...you were the one person in my life for so many years who I knew that I could trust no matter what....but now I find out that it was all a front...that everything you told me was a lie! That every time you told me that you cared you were just using me just like the rest of the world....every time we spoke you were laughing at me...you didn't care....that is not what love is...YOU DO NOT LOVE ME.....I trusted you with my heart I knew that I could trust you...all of my friends and family said that I could trust you...I believed that you actually cared about me...but no...I was so wrong...I was terribly wrong...it was all a mistake and all a lie...you tricked us all and most of all you tricked me! I was such a fool to trust you! I always try to see the best in people so sometimes I am blind to the darkness beneath and I get played...over and OVER again...I have been tricked and used again and again by so many people and YOU KNEW THAT....and what hurts the most...is that I told you that...I told you how many times my heart had been broken...and you promised me that you would never break my heart...you promised me that I could trust me...and all of that...every hour I spoke to you was all a big joke on me...were you laughing at me? I cannot believe that even though you knew just how broken I was you used that and you used me just the same way that everyone else has...but by having it be you...it was so much worse then all the times before...I told you things my family never knew about me....and you took that and used it against me...she crumpled on the floor...she hugged herself trying to rock herself to sleep tears streaming down her face....Here is the thing...as much as I want to hate you for what you did...as much as I don't want to give you the satisfaction of seeing me weak and broken once again...the honest truth..is that you broke my heart...but the truth is also...as angry as I am for what you did to me...I FORGIVE YOU...I cannot stay mad at you....I know you have a wonderful purpose on this earth even if you have not discovered it yet...I believe in you that you can change...you can make a difference...One lesson I have learned throughout my life is if you hold on to anger and hurt it only makes you bitter and miserable...I have been through the pain and have come out standing more then once and this will be no different...don't worry about me...I will be fine...even though tears and the pain consume me right now....I will survive..I will make it out the other side..So stand in the rain....Stand your ground...Stand up when it's all crashing down....Stand through the pain....You won't drown...And one day what's lost can be found...So stand in the rain...
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Soon!

Hey Everyone!
So I FINALLY wrote another story for you all! lol I'm so sorry that it has taken so long but thankfully I am going to be having more time for this blog because I have had some huge responsibilities taken off of my plate so I am still busy but I have a little bit more free time then I did which is kind of beautiful : ) I hope you all had an amazing day today! : ) I hope that you all had a very Happy Easter! Stay tuned for more stories soon!
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Stronger

She sat alone on the floor tears streaming down her face. When everyone else was around she was tough she was strong but alone in the solitude she was broken into pieces. She was hurt and she was broken no one understood her pain. She had the weight of the world on her shoulders a burden to great for her to bare. She felt tired, alone, and desperate, and she no longer knew what to do. Constantly she put up a front for the world pretending that everything was alright while in reality she was broken inside. Is there anything left worth fighting for? She wondered...perhaps her destiny was to be depressed and alone. Her heart had been broken again and again relentlessly and clumsily put back together again. She felt so used she no longer knew who to trust. She felt unworthy, unloved, and positively ugly. She didn't know why these strong negative thoughts were infiltrating her mind. But they were a small strong army slowly but steadily taking over her mind. She was tired of feeling not good enough and constantly having to defend herself and continually feeling as if she would never measure up in this world and that she would never amount to anything. People who once cared about her now hated her....people whom she cared for would never know her true affections...She stuffed everything she had into a bottle and stuck in the cork...even though she was so pressured she thought she would explode she would remain in her tragic misery. Living a life in the shadows...not really a life worth living at all...noticed by no one but those who did notice her hated her....She collapsed into a pile drawing her knees to her chest and dropping her head onto her knees....The only thing she had that kept her going was one thing...one small glimmer...a glimmer of hope a glimmer a sparkle of something perhaps greater then even she knew....she didn't know what this meant but the allure made her stronger to survive another day....When the waves are taking you under hold one just a little bit longer He knows that this is going to make your stronger stronger ...The pain will not last forever things can only get better believe me this is going to make you stronger...gonna make your stronger....
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FINALLY!

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WOW! I am soooo sorry that it has been so long since I last posted a new story! lol I kept telling you all that I was working on something new and that it would be coming soon. But, the truth of the matter is...I'm still working on that story and all of the sudden that poem came to me just randomly and I knew I had to write it down! So I decided that since Purple Eyes is a showcase of writing I thought that I would post my poem for you all to see! I hope that you all enjoy it and I hope that you forgive me for not posting in so long. Stay tuned for more stories that I promise will actually be coming in the near future! Love you all!
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Breaking

Breaking
What am I supposed to do
How can I express my true feelings without hurting you
What should I say
I know that if I speak my heart I'll want to run away
Why do you force me to make this decision
Where there is no easy reply
If I am forced to break your heart a part of me will die along with you
There is no easy way out
I'm starting to doubt what I believe
I second guess myself
Once you are gone it will break me
I cannot sleep at night
I am tortured by my pain
Maybe all along you were right
And I have nothing left to gain
But I believe there is something more
Please don't press me into war with you
I can't stay here
But I don't want to hear goodbye
I'm consumed by fear
I don't know what to do
My eyes fill up with tears
I don't see an option that won't kill you
Please just let me go
It's the only way that I'll survive
If you want to show you love me you will understand that I have to go
Please don't cry for me
I promise I'll be fine
He will take care of me
Please don't say goodbye
Just let me walk away and start anew
I promise I will never forget you
It wasn't meant to be
Some day I'm sure that you will see
That it was the right thing
To let me go
And when I'm gone
And your finally grown
You shall realize your not all alone
That someone was there for you all along
But you never could see it through your sorrow
I never wanted to hurt you
But I'm not who you think I am
For my whole life I always knew
That there was something out there more for me
That this would never be our destiny
That it would never be this
I hate to hurt you but I can't
Continue
Please don't make this harder then it already is
We are destined to be apart
You may think I'm insane
But I have to listen to my heart

PurpleEyesRBeautiful

2012

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Wow I am sooooo sorry that I haven't blogged in so long. My life has literally been so crazy lately I have just lost total track of time. I will try my best to post a new story for you all soon. I hope that you all had a very merry Christmas and a happy new year! Thank you for being such faithful followers of my blog. Stay tuned for a new story in the near future.
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