She stood alone in the empty room. Her eyes were glazed as she stared off into space. Her eyes were frozen glued to the barren white walls. She took in short raspy breaths as she stood frozen comatoes. She was desperate for anything anyone to take away the hurting....she felt willing to compromise every promise she had made to herself so long ago in order to make the pain simply go away....she so badly wanted to feel whole again...she felt as if everything and everyone who she loved was slowly slipping away....She could feel them loosening their grasp and letting go of her and falling away into the abys of shadows....that they were falling away from her sight and from her life....she was so afraid that she was going to loose them forever...that she would never see them again...that they were leaving her...just like everyone else...everyone always left her...at one point or another everyone would abandon her....that was the story of her life she would give her heart away and would love to hre greatest capacity until her heart burst....and then slowly but surely they would fade away and would slip silently out of her life like a nightmare or a shadow....PLEASE...she whispered....don't leave me...not again...she felt so lonely and so afraid that she was going to be abandoned again...but then again she was used to it by now...it was the story of her life...everyone who she loved would leave her...slowly but surely they would all walk away...either they would slip away in the night into the forever sleep...or once they discovered who she really was they would run away...they would leave when it got tough even when she did everything in her power to stay strong for them...when life would get difficult they would run away....and after a time she began to run to...she was so tired of being left alone she started blocking people out of her life....she didn't even truely know if she could really love again...she didn't know if love was maybe just a fairy tale which didn't really exist....that no one would ever really be there for her...that no one would ever really care...that maybe all of her hopes and dreams were just wishful thinking that would never come to pass...NO! she siad...this can't be true! there has to be hope...even in the darkness there is always some light there is always a hope and always something worth continuing for...even when her heart was shattered she would continue...she would stand strong though the storm....no matter what life threw at her she would withstand the pain...she would remain...when her world was falling apart around her she would stay through the pain and the suffering and she would survive through it all..some how she would survive and keep going....she couldn't give up on love...love was what drove her to care...love was what drove her to stay alive...the hope and the promise that some day someone would love her enough not to leave her...and even if they did...that she would know without a doubt that they were not trying to hurt her...even if everyone and everything she held dear was ripped away she would remain...through it all she would be a mighty fortress strong and beautiful withstanding the storm...even when the strongest winds hit she would brace herself for the pain and keep her footing she would not be moved...she would find someone who would not break her heart...she would find someone who would love her even once they discovered who she really was...she would stand strong and tall like a tower until the sun would rise over the darkest valley and light her way...
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